I am a restless sleeper to begin with. Sometimes we can be so wrapped up in our ways, that we don't even realize we are doing something. I used to wake up periodically through the night and look at the alarm clock sitting 12 inches from my face. Sometimes I would even be spiteful towards that old clock for not being further along than it was. At other times I would just glance at it and go back to sleep. Once that alarm clock was removed from my side of the bed, I didn't know what to do with myself. I would wake-up and stair at where the clock used to be. Every once and a while I would just have to know, so I would prop myself up and look across Amy to where the clock rested on her end table.
Last night was different. I woke up at 2:47a.m. (I know this because I glanced at it when I was on my way to the restroom). However, I couldn't go back to sleep. I thought to myself, what has changed? The alarm clock is still in the room. It is still on "a" side of the bed, even though it is on the other side. Time has not changed, and I am still sleeping in the same room. The difference was I wasn't so obsessed with what time it was if I woke up in the night. I knew that it was still dark, and eventually I would fall back asleep.
We can parallel this in our own spiritual lives. We should never be so hung up over watching for Christ's return that we miss it. IT WILL HAPPEN! However we can't allow ourselves to be so obsessed with looking for it that we lose sight of what He has for us in the here and now. Don't allow yourself to be angry or frustrated that things haven't transpired in your life up to this point. Instead, rest in His grace and mercy. This is not to be mistaken with being Watchful and Vigilant, as I talk about this in my book. We should absolutely be those things. However, we can't live in fret or hyperness as to what will happen next in this world...